Ironic Happiness

In Phantom of the Opera there is a part where the Phantom is singing above the stage on a statue of something that is happy while he is singing about something extremely sad.  Is this what life is about?  No one wants to be unhappy, so whenever people make you unhappy it is always their fault.  But who says that one has to be happy or sad?  Why can't people just be there?  No one wants to be unhappy, so they ignore the people that are or try to make them feel better.  Usually feeling better means making them happy.  No one knows what it is to make others happy.  No one knows what is good for other people.  We hardly know what is good for ourselves. 

Unhappiness can be good.  So can happiness.  They each have their place.  Let it come.

Thanks to the one person who cares.  As much as a person can care.

~another musing of the ill-informed~

Shadows in Flight

Orson Scott Card's newer book, Shadows in Flight, was released in January and I, way behind the times, just recently read it.  Hey self!  Get with the program Self!

So.  The book.  It was like swimming in an ocean of literary and mentally stimulating material.  The end of the book was much like surfacing for air.  I found it interesting that Bean's 3 offspring with him on the interstellar journey called Bean the Giant.  It was just weird for a character that we always knew as Bean become the inscrutable being who watches over the younger's lives but only interferes like a scientist when necessary.  It also may be beneficial to compare Bean to the other Giant in the Ender saga of the Fantasy (Mind) Game.  Fantasy Giant: reflects children's need to have the test where they can never win and the best move is to just refuse to play.  Bean may seem to emulate this slightly in that he always must be one step ahead of his children though, with three of them working on three seperate endeavors.  The ship containing the antonines, as they call themselves, soon meets a ship in the innards of space near of planet that seems suitable for organic life.  This second contact with the Buggers brings a depth to past encounters that used to only belong to Ender Wiggin.  This next installment into the Wiggin saga is refreshing, enlightening, and mentally invigorating.  As is typical of Orson Scott Card, an enthusiastic 10 out of 10.  My only regret is that I am finished with the book.

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Since when have I posted here?

I am quite a good procrastinator.  I keep telling myself I will post but then I never do.  It has been almost a month since I did something here.  I hate myself for being able to procrastinate so well!  Too much fun!

So.  I have two posts written up but I don't feel like typing that right now.  So I'll go with Brave for now.  Good movie.  Girl gets tired of authority figures in her life not giving her any freedom.  Then she finds that when released from her bonds of regulations that her life is just a bit worse than it was before.  Therefore she goes meekly (if such a thing could be said of her behavior, thusly contradicting the title of the movie) back into the suffocating embrace of authority which left the audience thinking that this embrace had changed to become slightly more porous.  Sounds sort of like America except for that last part there.  That's not all that I took out of the movie, but that's what I choose to type out of these here fingers.  Overall, an interesting, thoughtful, structurally stereotypical, entertaining movie.

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Plans

Things go wrong.  Babies get born.  Babies get not born.  People live.  People die.  Plans go well.  Others don't.  Sometimes what we set out to do goes exactly how we want it do.  Often it doesn't.  Life goes on.  Life doesn't go on.  It is near impossible to always predict things accurately.  Life is spontaneous.  We might get scared.  We might get happy.  Knowing that we will be happy might not lead to happiness.  Roll with the punches.  Life goes on.  Let it keep going.

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The Fault in our Stars

Gosh I hate John Green.  I was just on a stint of being happy and at peace and then I have to go read The Fault in our Stars and get all depressed-like.  The book is about people with cancer who end up meeting and are interested in each other after a long series of plot development who go to Amsterdam together but are quickly pulled back into the harsh reality the life is terminal.  Not that they ever lost that realization.  But at least they could not think about it.  Which helps.

Like any other John Green book for me, it is terribly depressing because it talks about subjects that make me depressed.  So there you go.  John Green: Great author, absolutely horrid for my emotional health.  The Fault in our Stars? 9 flowing tears out of 10.

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Have Not Posted Here in A While

I think I should start doing this again.  I have been thinking and reading a lot with much more time now.  I think I might also finish posting from the Europe trip that happened in April.  So long ago.  So right now I am trying to upgrade in refereeing which is being annoying right now.  Humans are so nonmalleable.

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Europe Trip 01.04.12 7:22 PM Sunday

Our first performance today was at a church right on Old Town Square.  The church was quite nice, but for some reason the choir was not singing at its best.  Probably a combination of singing in the morning, not watching the director, and not being technically correct with the actual singing.  It was not a very nice feeling.

Our band at the stand at Old Town Square.  Sorry about that color guard flag there...

Right after the service we went to the church we used last night and changed into our band uniforms.  Before the performance, I thought the residents of Prague would be upset at us playing loudly in the middle of their city.  It was completely the opposite!  At least as far as I know.  We had people following us from where we warmed up to the Easter Market.  They loved us!  We've been in parades before, but you haven't been in a Parade until you march on cobbled streets and sidewalks, people pressing on both sides taking pictures, and having to dodge objects and holes all over the place.  It was SO crazy!  The most rewarding experience by far on this trip.

The band marching away from the square

Spent the rest of the day getting lost, getting unlost, then getting lost again all over the city.  Really didn't have anything to do.  Just like I'm doing right now.  Waiting to get fed, guten Nacht.

Playing around with light on my camera in Old Town Square

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Europe Trip 31.03.12 11:26 PM Saturday

First full day in Prague.  It was quite a day.  There is an Easter Market in Prague, so there are many stalls in the Old Town Square, a pedestrian only zone near the Vltava, or Moldau, River.

A view of beautiful Prague

This guy was either really drunk or his horse had a bladder problem

We started the day with a tour starting at the Castle District, going across the Charles Bridge, and ending at Old Town Square.  The tour was alright.  It had some great views of the city from the castle and the buildings had a dark feel to them in general.  After the tour, we went to a restaurant our guide recommended near the square.  I had a Moravian Sparrow, a meat dish served with red and white cabbage, potato dumplings with bacon, and bread.  Also had ginger ale, and it was the best ginger ale I ever had, it actually tasted like it had ginger in it.

This guy amused me, he stayed so still...

After that, we walked around a bit, looking in stores and stalls until our performance at a church near the square.  The performance was alright, but the acoustics were great!  We then walked to dinner which consisted of soup, meat on mashed potatoes, and a nut cake.  After getting to the hotel and getting all of the clothes ready for tomorrow, I started prank calling other people from our group on the hotel phones and talking to them in German.  They have no idea what's going on!

Sunbear eatin' some foods!

Tomorrow is April Fool's Day.  We have a church service and a parade at the square.  For reals. After that we plan to only talk in incomplete sentences to the staff on the trip.  It will hopefully be very interesting.




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Europe Trip 31.03.12 7:13 AM Saturday

Dinner last night was a buffet, so lots of food.  Not that I mind only eating a little bit.  Though the Europeans we saw did have quite a bit of food.  After dinner went to my room.  Sometime after that I fell asleep.  I slept past room check.  Them when I woke up after that I kept asking if we had room check yet.  I was pretty tired I guess.  Hotel wifi is REALLY bad.  You can stand right in front of the router and not get any signal.  Like I said, REALLY bad.

This morning the clock/alarm provided a bloodcurdling chirp that awoke my entire room at once.  We were quite annoyed. :O So we took showers and went to breakfast.  Nobody from our group was there yet, at least we couldn't see anyone.  So I think we ended up eating in the wrong room.  Oops.  I am pretty sure I heard one person remark, "Those stupid Americans!"  Not quite as stupid as they think, I am sure.  Anyway, the food was good, they had real apple juice instead of water in the apple juice thing like at dinner last night.  I really like the meats over here, they seem more substantial than stuff in the states.

A beautiful view of sunlight sneaking through the clouds taken from the castle

Currently watching German TV.  I think that most people here will be able to speak German and sometimes English, as well as the local language which is close to but definitely not Polish.  Was watching a cartoon version of the Jungle Book!  Sehr gut!  And now I'm watching a comedy about I guy who likes to pretend he does different jobs.  Hilarious!  Today we have a tour of the Castle District and then a performance at a church off of the Old Town Square.  Wiedersehen!

A view of the castle from a bridge over the Vltava (Moldau)

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Europe Trip 30.03.12 3:26 PM Friday

In our room at the Hotel Duo in Prague, Czech Republic.  I cannot read anything here!  Too many consonants!

AHHH! Consonants!

Sunbear in front of a building outside the hotel

We departed from Frankfurt a little late for an hour-long flight.  That was a doozy.  Pretty much liftoff, lunch, prepare for landing, all in rapid sequence.  It was quite fun.  Got of the plane (in Prague!) and had to get luggage (what a tedious process!), then get everyone in our group together, and then got on the busses to the hotel.  The tour director was on our bus and explained a few things to us, though I don't think anyone was awake to hear it.  We were all so tired.  Finally got to our room and unpacked.  Walked around then FINALLY took a shower.  Feel so good now.  Some kids were playing frisbee outside and I am now watching German TV.  Fascinating!  I am not even sure how they say goodbye in the Czech Republic (not even sure what language they speak. Maybe Polish?), so for now, wiedersehen!

EPIC FRISBEE!

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Europe Trip 30.03.12 8:41 AM Frankfurt Time Friday

Wow.  That was a long flight.  But I suppose it was alright for not being on a plane since I was 6.  I got stuck next to a German man who was used to being largely postured, pushing me and Sunbear nearly out of our seat.

Sunbear on the plane

As for the inflight entertainment, it was incredibly boring.  My entertainment consisted of me listening to Bartok, watching other peoples' movies, and watching the map of our flight path on my own screen.  This reminded me of the Indiana Jones map scenes, prompting me to think and hum the theme.

Doo doo doot doo! Doo doo doo!

Didn't really sleep too much on the plane because of the really bright screens on the back of peoples' seats and people named DEREK MCBLANE being really annoying (Names may have or may NOT have been changed).  So I'm sitting here at Frankfurt Airport waiting for the connecting flight to Prague.  One hour to go for what I think will be essentially takeoff and then get ready to land.  See you in Prague.

Sunbear on the plane at Frankfurt

(Btw, first time I've been in a foreign country)
(That is, other than America)

Tchuess!

The dress on that woman on the toilet sign is quite revealing!

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Europe Trip 29.03.12 14:42 Thursday

Waiting by the gate right now for boarding to begin.  Some German person next to me sneezed.  Gesundheit!  The short while before we get to the Czech Republic that I even know what language they're speaking. (German)

After the two hour bus ride to Newark, had a whale of a time getting boarding passes, going through security, and checking baggae.  That last part had a little bit of a snag.  They wanted me to keep my mellophone with me on the plane, but it was supposed to be checked.  After only a slight bit of consternation, everything was sorted out and my instrument was on its way down the conveyor belt.

Well I guess me and sunbear will try to rest before our 17:25 flight.  Haven't been on a plane since I was six, so I don't quite remember what to expect.  Until then, as the German people next to me said, "Tchuess!"

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Back From Europe

Just got back from Europe last night, so I will start uploading a journal and pictures from the trip starting tonight.  See you then!

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Finally!

By this time tomorrow I will hopefully be in Prague, Czech Republic.  I guess I still don't want to get too excited.  I will be putting up pictures of the legendary Sunbear and keeping a journal of his adventures (and mine as well).  Can't wait until we get there!

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Going to Europe on Thursday!!!

I love trying not to get excited about stuff.  I guess I just have so much going on right now that I don't really have time to think about things that are going to happen.  I like that.  Because if I get excited, I get REALLy excited.  Well, I'm just about packing and making final preparations.  Look for pictures in the next week with the star, SUNBEAR!!!  I still need to get him though...

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Streak of Procrastination VANQUISHED!!!

As I said I would, despite the not so good weather, I took pictures today!  And, in a rare show of nonprocrastinativity, I've uploaded them to the computer!  And will even post them here right now!  The same day!

Hopefully more forthcoming.  Enjoy!

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Taking Pictures

I really need to stop procrastinating.  But it is SO much FUN!!!  Anyway,  the trees and flowers have started to bloom and they look very nice and I need to go out and take pictures, but I am far too lazy to do this.  So I think I will do it tomorrow.  Take a good walk and take a lot of pictures.  Which I will then post on this site.  What a good plan!  Except I procrastinated too much last year and the flowers started turning brown and icky.  Let's hope that doesn't happen tomorrow, I really need to get outside!

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Fantasy

The best fantasy writers must be completely immersed in the world that they create.  They must be able to live and breath it whenever they are writing.  Only then will their world make sense and not have huge jumps in plot and details.  The fantasy writer must become like an actor, placing themselves in their world that they and only they can understand.  The best actor becomes that which they portray.  As the fantasy writer must live in their world in order to portray it accurately.  You can tell when a fantasy writer has worked well on their tale: when the reader understands exactly what happened and why.  And no huge surprises.  You cannot invent methods at the end of the story.  That is an author just trying to bring closure incompletely.  It doesn't work because it doesn't make sense.  And that is not cool, not matter what.

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Spring is almost sort of here!

The bulbs outside my house are getting ready to bloom!  I hope they don't flower when I'm in Europe.  That would be disappointing.  I hope they come up when I'm here, then I can get some AWESOME pictures.  I'm very excited for this...

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Doing Nothing

I enjoy not having to do anything, just being there, doing there, having a there moment.  When you don't have to be anywhere, do anything, say anything.  And that happens so little in our society because of time.  The thing that tells you what to do even if you don't care.  You must sleep.  You must wake up.  Always moving, talking, doing.  No stop.  Sometime...

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The quiet place

I enjoy quiet places when they are not usually quiet.  The large hall where people bustle around and there is general chaos that is silent.  I like to jump around and make a fool out of myself and just not care what is going on, just being there.  I guess it is sort of parallel to the silent party in the high level government building in Saga by Conor Kostick where everyone plays music on their headphones and dances with no sound.  That kind of thing.  Sort of thumbing your nose at everybody.

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Festival is over

Just came back from a chorus festival.  SOOO tired!  It was alright I suppose.  I always enjoy the German songs.  They just seem so much fun for me.  What I don't get is why people like the stereotypical big man bass sound.  And everybody can do it.  If I wanted to, I could do it.  It is just so much more aurally pleasing to have that lighter more mobile sound.  It doesn't work if you want to do fast long runs or stuff that is more technical.  I just don't get it sometimes.

~another musing of the ill-informed~

Talking is an inefficient way to communicate

People can't listen to each other.  They don't listen or don't care about what other people are saying or just can't comprehend it.  What is more efficient?  Not sure.  Can we speed up the speed of thought?  How fast do you think?  How fast is fast?  Can you change the speed of thought?  This is something I could get into I think.

~another musing of the ill-informed~

William Faulkner

Over the summer I had tried to read The Sound and the Fury.  But I just couldn't get past the first 2 pages.  I got way too bored.  Too many words on the page that are uninteresting!  I hate when I get books like that.  I really want to read them, but I just can't.  So now I had to read A Rose for Emily as part of a class.  Still boring, but since I had to read it...sure.  It wasn't too too bad on the boring scale, since it was a short story the action had to go sort of fast.  The secret to her insanity was a pretty cool reveal at the end.  As a story it wasn't too bad.  I guess a 7 out of 10 for eloquence and an intriquite plot.

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Snow Pictures

Here are the pictures of snow that I promised earlier but was too lazy to upload to my computer. :)

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Snow!

Over the weekend it snowed for an hour or two then stopped.  It had started accumulating and the snow itself was very large.  I do have some pictures and I might put up some in the near future.  But immediately after the snowfall the sun came out brighter than it was all day and melted all the snow in 30 minutes.  Darn Sun!

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In remembrance

This poem brings tears every time I hear or see the last line.

Do not stand at my grave and weep..
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star-shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry..
I am not there. I did not die.

~another musing of the ill-informed~

Getting Warmer

With a winter season that was lacking in snow, it is now getting warmer.  The flowers will soon be out (more pictures) and soccer season is almost here.  I hope that this good weather continues into when it should be nice outside, the spring.  It would be very disappointing if the spring has more precipitation than the winter.

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My sony alpha

About 2 years ago I purchased a Sony a-380 and I have always been very pleased with it.  But I just randomly looked at some new cameras from sony and was quite surprised.  The new a-65 I am particularly interested in.  A good deal at 1000 for a 24.3 mp camera with 18-55 sam lense and 10 fps shooting.  And did I mention it shoots full HD video?  Now there is no reason to buy a canon.  I love SONY!!!

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A picture and a short...thing

Please Believe me when I say that it is snowing in this picture.



On another note, I feel sad when I look at you.
I'm not sure why.
Should I feel sad?
Are you sad?
I feel as if I am.
I look at you and say: How beautiful.
I look at you and say: I will never be good enough for you.
look and feel sad

~another musing of the ill-informed~

Paper

There is a large portion of society that has to deal with paper more than it should.  Almost everything is paper.  I blame math.  And control freaques.  I spelled that wrong because I want to.  There are things that cannot be done without paper because that is the procedure.  Words words words!  Enough talking.  It's time for the final episode to this little drama.  (In the words of Dwayne Powers)

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Maybe getting there

I think I am figuring out what being self-centered is like.  There are times when I just feel like I don't have emotion for anyone except for myself.  Things that happen to me.  I don't think I even care if they are directly related to me.  I think I just don't care.  Perhaps this is a good thing.  I already have too many emotions running around.  But that feels self-centered to me.  Free to attach themselves to me as they want because I don't really care anyway.  Like a remora to a shark.  Not to say that I am the shark in life, but you get the picture.  *sigh*

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I want a battle room

There is a part in Ender's Game where Ender refuses to leave practice before Dink does and this leads Ender to see what Dink does after each practice.  He takes off his clothes and floats from one wall of the room to the other, very slowly.  I think that I would like to be able to do this.  It seems very restful.  He says that the walls absorb de crazy and then the little boys come and bump into the walls and squish out de crazy back into him so he has to get rid of it again.  I have crazy.  I think I would like one of these...

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Valentine's Day

It's Valentine's Day!  A day that I don't really care about and don't care to care about at all.  Just another thing to divert our attention from what is ruining our lives.  Now I start thinking about what is ruining our lives.  Don't really know there.  I think I'm on the track of greed.  Getting things.  Even I spend a bit of my time wanting.  Then I get depressed about not having.  Side Note:  Depressed is much less in my mind than depression.  Depression is serious, depressed just a feeling.  End side note.  But anyway, valentine's day is just something that people look forward to for the sake of looking forward to, nothing more nothing less.  Just an arbitrary day in the scope of things.  Love always!  Or not.  Who am I to tell you what to do anyway?

~another musing of the ill-informed~

Card's New Book

Orson Scott Card's new book is called Shadows in Flight and follows Bean and his children as they embark on a relativistically stained journey waiting for scientists to find a cure their giantism.  These scientists forget about this condition and Bean and his companions just become a myth in space.  Of course all of this is just heresay because I never read the book and was just basing this off of a review.  I should never trust what other people say about things, but if I want to write something slightly meaningful about the book, I need to blindly follow in the darkness.  Need to get the book sometime!

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Geography

Just put the map back up in my room.  Was watching Jeopardy! and decided that I don't know nearly enough geography.  I can usually absorb things by reading them, so I put the map in the hopes that looking at it will help me learn some geographic things.  Here goes trying to learn some stuff by looking at it!
Also starting to read Ender's Shadow again.  You can tell that I'm getting bored.  I keep reading the same things over and over again.  There is a new Card book out isn't there?  I think it came out in the middle of January.  Maybe I could read that.  It is the second book in the new Ender/Bean series. (the one that started with Ender starting the Shakespeare colony)  I think I'll look into it.

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So I was going to take pictures...

So remember how I said I would take pictures of the snow?  Well, I was going to, but when I got a chance to take some pictures, the snow was all gone!  Darn sun!  Taking away all of my snow.  It looked really nice to.  It nicely framed the branches of some evergreens and stuff.  It's supposed to snow sometime soon in the next week, so hopefully I can get some pictures then.

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SNOW!

Looked out the window today and saw SNOW!  And it kept SNOWing for another couple of hours!  And it is still SNOWing!  I think this is our first real SNOW this year.  Snow on snow, snow on...
I think I'll take pictures tomorrow, should be great!

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People

I have come to the conclusion that people do not know anything.  Everything we think we know is from other people and they base it off of their perceptions.  Everything is based off of perception.  The color blue is a perception.  Senses are perceptions.  Everything we know is a lie.  Where is the truth in life?

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If I could say Something...

Don't be so depressed.  It is a waste of a wonderful life to go through everything on the down side.  People don't want to feel sad.  You're no exception.  People also don't like when other people make them feel sad.  Do you want to be alone?  Then by all means, keep alienating everyone around.  But when you find out that the people that you need and need you can't go through this anymore, I'll be there for you.
"Goodnight, my angel
Time to close your eyes
And save these questions for another day
I think I know what you've been asking me
I think you know what I've been trying to say
I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Wherever you may go
No matter where you are
I never will be far away

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you sang for me
When we went sailing on an emerald bay
And like a boat out on the ocean
I'm rocking you to sleep
The water's dark and deep
Inside this ancient heart
You'll always be a part of me"

~another musing of the ill-informed~

Count of Monte Cristo

There is a part in this book where the Count reveals his true identity to Fernand, one of those who had had a hand in putting the Count, young Edmond, into prison.  Prior to this Fernand had been on the point of dueling the Count for turning Fernand's son and wife against him and exposing him as a traitor.  Fernand just wanted to know who his tormentor was before he killed him.  After the Count was exposed, however, Fernand could no longer bring himself to kill the one whose vengeance was justified.  Deep down, Fernand knew that if any man was justified in condemning him, it was Edmond.  He resigned himself to live his life of torment and dishonor, as he should have from the point he was jealous of Edmond.

Also, blogger is not letting me look at my pageview stats...

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Ink problems

So I have a Lexmark printer and recently purchased some ink for it, but the cartridge would not work in my printer.  Apparently there was a problem with the shape of the cartridge that made it incompatible with my printer.  Looked on the internet for some solutions, tried some, didn't work.  Then I went to the Lexmark website for some customer service and when all was said and done, I'm getting a cartridge shipped to me.  Just got the notification today.  I was sort of surprised and very pleased with the treatment I received.  People I am close to like to get very angry at customer service if you know what I mean.  I am not used to a very helpful customer service.  So I was very very surprised with the outcome of my situation.  I was hoping that my cartridge would work.  Oh well.  But thanks for the help!

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Academic Quiz Bowl

Had a great couple of close matches today.  One the second one with incisors!  Haha.  I enjoy answering questions on these quiz type things, like Jeopardy and stuff.  Was actually going to take the quiz for the show but they postponed it. :( I just love when you're not sure about something and then you guess and get it right when you knew nothing about it.  That is what makes these quiz things fun.  And whenever it is about the North Pole, do Peary.  Everest, do Hilary.

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Just finished Children of the Mind...AGAIN!

Did you know that wangled is used?  Not quite sure why I care (just kidding, it's a great word)  but someone uses it referring to Wang-Mu.  Wang-mu wangled.  ROFL!  But I noticed a couple of philosophic things I hadn't seen before.

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Singing

Just had a chorus festival.  And it hurt...so annoying to sing for over 24 hours over 3 days...ugh.  Not fun at all.  I do like the singing part.  Just not the 24 hours part.  The last day is always the best.  But the parts before that, not so much.  Glad it's over, though we did have some good times.  Maybe I'll think up some good posts over the next week.  One note: kid who walks on the street, it is very er...invigorating to hear you sing heavy metal a capella.  Just saying...

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I just don't get it

I don't understand why some people have this insane complex that makes them rebel against everything they are told.  So what if you say the sky is blue!  I don't even think blue is a color!  I suppose that this is good in controlled quantities, but when you question everything and have an unquenchable hate of authority, there's a little bit of a problem there.  Humans need authority.  One person or thing that can influence them.  Why do you think role models are so popular?  Because people are not original.  They have to invent and reinvent themselves time and time again, rarely getting it right.

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SNOW!!!

Finally had a bit of snow today!  And the nasty soccer assignors hadn't given us any games to referee so now the games should have been canceled!  Should be a good break for us.  Anyway.  Quite late in a season for a first snow in the winter.  Though we did have one in October.  I hope that this isn't just a way of putting off the bad weather until the spring.  That would not be very good at all.

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Martin Luther King Day

Yesterday was the day that we remember the trials and sacrifices of a certain man as well as the people who were free without freedom.  I had the special experience of being able to sing with a large choir composed mostly of colored Americans.  It was a great experience.  It is at times like these that I wonder how discrimination could ever have existed in the forms that it used to.  However, those days are now mostly gone and times are mostly better.

~another musing of the ill-informed~

Ender's Game movie

Coming out in March 2013!  Hopefully.  As you may be able to imagine, I am quite excited for this magnificant event.  Apparently they are doing battle school scene filming from February to June in New Orleans.  Should be a pretty good cast and the Ender is apparently rather good.  From a series aspect, it would be semi-but not hard to do everything timeline wise.  Maybe with Bean, since he is so young to begin with, but everybody else can age seminaturally since Card made it very easy with his series.  Anyone for all of the Ender + Bean series to come out?  I am.

~another musing of the ill-informed~

How could you do this?

You used to have your life planned out.  You knew where you were going to be.  But you ate yourself up.  I don't know how, I don't know why.  How could you ever be like that?  Are you who I thought you were?  I'm not sure what I am now.  Surprised?  I thought I was.  Angry?  I suppose so, but can I really be?  Upset?  I'm not sure anymore.  Disappointed?  Yes.  I thought you were better.  Now?  The single crushing answer is no.  Everyone's a mortal.  We all fall.  Maybe it's easier for some but it isn't.  It's all the same.  The fight is life.  When you give up, when you give in, you lose.  Pain is terrible.  Pleasure is worse.

~another musing of the ill-informed~

This week was too long...

Hopefully next week does not feel as long as this one did.  I did not have off the day after New Year's so we went a full five days.  Such a drag!  Don't really have plans for this weekend, so mayhap I can sleep a little.  Found a new game called QWOP.  Apparently this has been out for a while.  But I found it on Monday and now I am getting quite adept at it.  At least when the computer does not suck.  I will put a video of me playing it up sometime.

Like right now!  This was a few days ago.
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Got my referee badge yesterday!

I got my referee badge yesterday!  So now I can "officially" referee soccer games.  Good thing too, since I have a game in about 2 weeks.  It's gon' be real cold.  I need to wear 20 pairs of underarmor or something.  Also got my nifty little card.  Awesomeness!  Yesterday was Wednesday.  Today is Thursday.  This week is going really slow.

~another musing of the ill-informed~

What I get to thinking about sometimes

Here is the thought process I go through sporadically:
1.  What was here before I got here?  What happens when I get older?  What about after I die?
2.  I only know me.  I feel like everybody else thinks and stuff, but I'm the only one I'm assured of.
(No offense to anybody else, but that's just the way I go through the thoughts sometimes-not that you all don't think or anything, but how am I supposed to KNOW that?)
3.  Why am I here?  Why is everybody else here?
4.  What is really going on?
Then I get started on scenarios.  Has anybody ever heard of sibilism?  Or sybilism?  Or sibylism?  It was mentioned in Orson Scott Card's Lost Boys.  I'm trying to figure out if it is for real or not...

~another musing of the ill-informed~

New Years a bit late

Happy New Year's Everybody!  a day late...uhhh...ok.  My resolution (if anyone cares) is to post 2x as much as I did last year and put more of my pictures on here.  Starting tomorrow that is.

~another musing of the ill-informed~